Stressed out.

I really hate it when it gets to one of those points in life where it feels like there is just too much going on and not enough time to think about everything never mind actually get on and do something about anything. Well that's pretty much where I am right now.

I'm on these antibiotics for the infection I've got in one of the wounds from the appendicectomy I had in the summer and they just wipe me out - make me feel really depressed actually.

I'm currently applying for uni, and was hoping to send off my UCAS application form by the end of this week but thats not going to happen anymore. With the spending cuts and everything up in the air with uni fees at the moment, I really don't know whether to take a gap year which was my original plan, or whether to just go straight to uni so that I don't have to pay the higher amount of money. Also got lots of work to do which I quite frankly can't be bothered to do. I have no motivation to do anything and would rather just curl up in a little ball for a few days in the hopes that everything gets better.

But life doesn't really work like that. And I know that from past experience that curling up in a little ball and hoping it just passes on by doesn't help - it makes it worse if anything!

"God is our refuge and strength and ever present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea." - Psalm 26:1-2

"Cast your cares on the Lord, He will sustain you. He will never let the righteous fall" - Psalm 55:22

"The Lord is close to the broken-hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit" - Psalm 34:18

"I waited patiently for the Lord, He turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire. He set my feet on a rock gave me a firm place to stand." - Psalm 40:1-2

The Psalms are an incredible comfort when things are difficult. Its a reminder that things are difficult, life is crap sometimes - but thats because we are living in a crap world, not because we have a crap god. God loves us. Oh how He loves us! He is gracious and compassionate. He comes down and rescues us. He is so patient with us, how much more then should we be patient with him - his timing is perfect. He knows what he is doing. And he causes all things to work together for the good of those who love him. Whatever he's doing right now is for my good. I just need to remember that and draw closer to him.